Fellowship & Fairydust

My heart dropped as my fears were confirmed

I was pregnant; for this I had not yearned

Where do I go?

To whom can I turn?

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Hi there, Mommy

It’s little me

I’m your baby

Can’t you see?

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I felt the tears running out of my eyes

Oh how I wish that this was a lie

Slowly I stood up and headed out

I needed to call him, there was no doubt

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Hi, again, Mommy! Guess how old I am now?

You can now detect my brain waves, I don’t know how

But that means that I am 6 weeks!

I can move my hands, and soon my feet

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He wants me to keep this thing

How can he not understand its sting?

Tomorrow I scheduled a consultation

After all this, I’ll deserve a vacation

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Today I think I am feeling sad

Did I hear you say that I made you mad?

I’m sorry, Mommy, I didn’t mean to

I love you don’t you know that’s true?

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Stupid doctor, says he wants me to wait

If I wait much more, it will be too late

I’ll try a different place

One that doesn’t cover the chairs in lace

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I’m feeling really scared

Today I think that nobody has ever cared

Mommy, I’m here for you every day

Please, please don’t throw me away

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Today I got the police to keep him away from me

He still wants the child, why can’t he see?

It isn’t a child yet!

Why can’t he just forgive and forget?

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My little heart beats fast in fear

I do not like the things I can hear

Mommy, won’t you just listen to me?

I’m a little baby, can’t you see?

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I can’t believe these people

Acting as though this sidewalk is a church with a steeple

Do they think they will change my mind?

That will never happen, they are in the blind

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Today my fingernails started to show

Though, my hair has yet to grow

Oh, mother, can you hear them pray?

Will you not listen to what they say?

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I can’t wait to get home in a few hours

To relax, maybe I’ll take a shower

Whatever I decide to do

I’ll be free from this curse

That’s so very true

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Mommy! Make this stop

I’m really scared now

This thing is trying to kill me, somehow

I can’t keep swimming away

I want to be in your life to stay!

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Oh, why am I in such pain?

But I guess there’s no pain, no gain

Soon it will be over for me

I’ll be able to go home, free

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I can’t hold on any longer

I’m sorry that I am not stronger

Mommy, before I die

I just want to tell you goodbye…

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[Heartbeat Stops]

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Nightmares, why do you plague me so?

I didn’t do anything wrong, don’t you know?!

I need to be able to get my sleep

So shut up, don’t make another peep

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Mommy, I’ll never stop loving you

I’m safe now, though once torn, its true

I don’t blame you for anything

I’m forgiving you for everything

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When I first woke up, I was crying

I was so scared, after dying

Then an angel comforted me

I’m your special guardian now, if you ever need me